psalmist
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Ok. I have a question that I am not sure if there is an answer for. I am about 3 years out from surgery and doing very well. I have my days. I blame allergies but sometimes I think its the coumadin. I seem to just drag a little. Nothing like before surgery. My heart is great, my health is great. I am down to 178 lbs. I look good. The question is about my personality. I used to be a very care free. Sometimes it would frustrate my wife. Now I am different. I don't know if I can explain it but the world and relationships are very different to me. Here let me put it this way
1.) I am not as emotionally open to people like I used to be - mostly just not emotional
2.) I am not as sensitive to my faith as I used to be (I still believe just a different emphasis)
3.) I am happy but in a different way
4.) I am more serious about life - maybe just more serious
I guess the bottom line is that i am different in subtle ways and I can't remember that part of me. I kinda miss it but I am not sure why I am different. I worry that I am not as fun loving with my wife/kids as I should be (in everyday things) and I don't want to waste an opporturnity. Anyone else have a similar experience?
1.) I am not as emotionally open to people like I used to be - mostly just not emotional
2.) I am not as sensitive to my faith as I used to be (I still believe just a different emphasis)
3.) I am happy but in a different way
4.) I am more serious about life - maybe just more serious
I guess the bottom line is that i am different in subtle ways and I can't remember that part of me. I kinda miss it but I am not sure why I am different. I worry that I am not as fun loving with my wife/kids as I should be (in everyday things) and I don't want to waste an opporturnity. Anyone else have a similar experience?