I've been on here less than a week, and I think I'm actually starting to get my head around things. Don't get me wrong, still petrified, but you guys and my colleagues at work have been just what I need.
So here I am, I've spent all my life thinking I couldn't conceive. In the middle of march I found out I was pregnant. At the beginning of April I found out I'd miscarried and I needed my valve replaced, and once done I wont be able to have children. What got me through my miscarriage? The knowledge that had it not happened I wouldn't have had further tests on my heart, and I wouldn't have known I need surgery. My baby saved my life. I'm terrified. I have chronic anxiety and always think the worst. So naturally my head focuses on the 'what-ifs'. However, after reading several posts on here and talking to colleagues who have had major surgery for other things, here's where I'm at now.
I want to know more but not seeing my surgeon for potentially another 5 weeks - I went on the British Heart Foundation website, made a donation, and ordered some useful leaflets.
A couple of folks on here recommended the GUCH website - I've been on and introduced myself
My anxiety is playing tricks with me - I can go get medicine, and also have the 'CBT Workbook for Dummies' I can go through.
My mind is working overtime with the 'what-ifs' - started compiling my list of questions for the surgeon (I can't do anything else).
I'm petrified - my colleague said why worry about something you can't change - and they're right
I'm feeling every niggle and 'symptom' since seeing my Cardiologist - accept that it's anxiety and nothing worse.
Panicked when seeing the phrase 'SDS' - as you guys said, they wouldn't have let me out of the door if there was any risk!
I don't think I'm totally there yet, as even now, as I write this I'm so scared, but I need to think more positively. I read somewhere that recovery is improved through positive thinking (that and my desperate need to stop smoking!). Negative thoughts will do me absolutely no good!
I already feel like a member of this lovely family and I can't thank you all enough for the support you have already shown me.
Jo x
So here I am, I've spent all my life thinking I couldn't conceive. In the middle of march I found out I was pregnant. At the beginning of April I found out I'd miscarried and I needed my valve replaced, and once done I wont be able to have children. What got me through my miscarriage? The knowledge that had it not happened I wouldn't have had further tests on my heart, and I wouldn't have known I need surgery. My baby saved my life. I'm terrified. I have chronic anxiety and always think the worst. So naturally my head focuses on the 'what-ifs'. However, after reading several posts on here and talking to colleagues who have had major surgery for other things, here's where I'm at now.
I want to know more but not seeing my surgeon for potentially another 5 weeks - I went on the British Heart Foundation website, made a donation, and ordered some useful leaflets.
A couple of folks on here recommended the GUCH website - I've been on and introduced myself
My anxiety is playing tricks with me - I can go get medicine, and also have the 'CBT Workbook for Dummies' I can go through.
My mind is working overtime with the 'what-ifs' - started compiling my list of questions for the surgeon (I can't do anything else).
I'm petrified - my colleague said why worry about something you can't change - and they're right
I'm feeling every niggle and 'symptom' since seeing my Cardiologist - accept that it's anxiety and nothing worse.
Panicked when seeing the phrase 'SDS' - as you guys said, they wouldn't have let me out of the door if there was any risk!
I don't think I'm totally there yet, as even now, as I write this I'm so scared, but I need to think more positively. I read somewhere that recovery is improved through positive thinking (that and my desperate need to stop smoking!). Negative thoughts will do me absolutely no good!
I already feel like a member of this lovely family and I can't thank you all enough for the support you have already shown me.
Jo x