BCMike
Member
Well, it's only 8 sleeps away and I can't wait to get this over with. All of the fears that I didn't know I even had are coming to the surface. That tube in my throat! The catheter not working properly! Pulling the pace wires out! DHCA! Being the first patient at the hospital to have this product installed - and them not doing it right! Having to inject my MS medication freehand. Post-op complications!
At the end of the day, I am soo thankful to be alive and in the hands of such skilled doctors and nurses. If I don't have this done, I won't be around this time next year. I use self-talk to calm my fears and reassure myself that it's all going to be okay.
But for some reason, I have this one annoying thought that i can't seem to push away. It is something like "I have a bad feeling about this surgery - I don't know what it is, but I just feel like I'm not going to make it"
On top of that, I practice mindfulness on a daily basis - both formally and informally. Studies show that positive thinking and those with a fighting spirit have a higher survival rate than their counterparts.
So then I think "Maybe it's these negative thoughts and feelings that are going to be my demise."!
I think that I think too much!
Any thoughts you can share to help me adjust my thinking in a more positive direction would be much appreciated.
TIA,
-Mike
At the end of the day, I am soo thankful to be alive and in the hands of such skilled doctors and nurses. If I don't have this done, I won't be around this time next year. I use self-talk to calm my fears and reassure myself that it's all going to be okay.
But for some reason, I have this one annoying thought that i can't seem to push away. It is something like "I have a bad feeling about this surgery - I don't know what it is, but I just feel like I'm not going to make it"
On top of that, I practice mindfulness on a daily basis - both formally and informally. Studies show that positive thinking and those with a fighting spirit have a higher survival rate than their counterparts.
So then I think "Maybe it's these negative thoughts and feelings that are going to be my demise."!
I think that I think too much!
Any thoughts you can share to help me adjust my thinking in a more positive direction would be much appreciated.
TIA,
-Mike