Hello, Johan, your scar seems to have almost no color left. My own at 4 months is still a rosy pink but the edges are becoming more diffuse and the color less intense.
I have considered a number of times how my own attitude towards it has changed over time. It now seems a little strange that before surgery i really disliked the idea of living with a substantial mark across my chest. Before surgery I still waited for someone to say "Oh, yes, we've double checked and we were mistaken...no need for surgery now." When I first saw the the incision after leaving the ICU it seemed a little surreal but it left no doubt that this thing had happened...the surface reminder of this new thing in my heart. In the months since then, I've come to look at it as a sort mark of passage. Now, as it begins to fade, there is a certain poetry in the fact that it diminishes as my body recovers its strength and stamina. I wonder now if there will ever come a time when I don't think about it every day.
Larry
