Well, Ter, looks like I'm 'it'. Probly nobody else will own up to it, but I will.
I smoked long and hard for most of my life. My dear ex taught me by asking me to 'bring me a cigarette, Hon' all those many yrs ago. Well, any fool nowadays knows that's a good way to get hooked, but in those days everybody did it (I am old, you know) and even drs got on TV, radio (all the media) and told you which was the best cigarette to smoke and why - all liars, by the way. And so I smoked, as many of us in VR did (but may not own up to it). My little son tried to get me to quit (he's 36 now) and I just couldn't seem to, but the day prior to my heart surgery (quad bypass - not valve replacement), I watched him drive up toward my house from far away to be with me during surgery. I was smoking - I put it down, and out and said never again. That was 3/8/2000 and I never even had withdrawal. THEN (story's not over yet) in March, 2001 a set of circumstances put me in close contact with a constant smoker, meaning I was also smoking - I soon bought a pack and it was like I never quit. My children were soooo disappointed in me. But this year, in the last few months, I have gotten quite short of breath and knew I was just killing myself. I finally picked the day (the hardest part), smoked that last cigarette at least six times (a bit at the time) and haven't smoked again. Quitting smoking is like losing your goodest friend, because it is comforting always and forever 'there' for you when maybe nobody or nothing else is and it's 24/7. It has a calming effect, somehow. Non-smokers will never ' get it' on this point but I bet those of you who gave it up know what I mean. There is one thing that I have to agree with the others about - how the h*** do I get the stink out of my house, because it really does.
And so, Ter, I don't know if this will help you any at all beause it is nigh to impossible to quit. When you say this is the 'last pack', you hurry up and smoke it ALL so you can start quitting, but then you say, well, one more pack and THEN.................well, you know. I will never condemn a single soul in this world for smoking - I will say ' Bless your heart, I sure understand" and I do. God bless