Julian
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I guess that after this year I can honestly say I'm not sure I believe in that anymore, but I know it won't cause any harm. This has been a tough year for me with my Father (cancer, expected outcome, time to get used to it) then my Wife (sudden death from unknown brain cancer) passing away. God did not once answer my prayers about my lovely wife. I can only say that I feel that if there is a God then he/she seems to want to punish and torment me for some reason.
Sorry to seem 'heart on sleeve' but I thought it appropriate to disclose WHY my mental state may seem more negative than 'just an infection on my chest' warrants.
Your a warrior. What you have endured in a short amount of time is more than most do in a lifetime. Again when you get through this you will be a living example of hope to many that may endure similar.
I don't know if anyone would agree with me on this but it seems like many in modern society have a underprivileged view or experience on what suffering really is. For many suffering is having to share a car, room, TV or Internet broken, losing a job ect. If you recall recent history or all of human history many have come before us and have lived through much darker times when there was no logical reason to carry on with life. For some reason these people in history did and while they wereddoing it they knew there was no hope for themselves but maybe for those in the future which they haven't met...
Don't mean to get philosophical or preachy but that just makes me think sometimes. Sometimes I have to remind myself or others I have relationships with that lifes not always about them or me or their families or my family but maybe about someone you've never met.