Since you may not have a lot of time before your huband's surgery, may I suggest that a way to get through the anxiety and feel better about thinking clearly, is to, well, enter into a zone of acceptance. Like walking from a blustery day into a warm, cozy, comfortable room.
I've thought about this alot actually. I'm 6 months post op. I've been on the forum for 3 years. Once you can accept that things will almost certainly be okay, once you can accept the card that's been handed you....the stress melts away and you can just start putting lists and information together. The clarity just walks right in the door.
While no one can be sure of what the day will bring, please trust us that this surgery is a good thing.
Your husband will more than likely be tolerant of the pain meds and therefore not feel very much pain. Oh, it isn't fun. And there are some very outrageous moments, but they don't last long, someone figures out what's up and the recovery continues. His chance for survival is astoundingly positive. Even with 2 valves. You are going to a first rate hospital, with very experienced staff and more than likely, very caring people. Human people. People with families. People who are overworked, but who will listen. You need to remember to use these people. They are there to help you both. Listen carefully. Take notes. Bring notes.
While everything will be foreign to you, none of this is unfamiliar to them. They will help you understand and make choices. You just have to be as relaxed as you can be and you will do fine.
So try to breathe. Take some time to enjoy each other. Laugh and be close. And get as many of your "ducks in a row" as you can. But even if you miss some, it's okay. It will all be there in a few weeks.
We can tell you what to expect during the hospital stay, what to expect the first few days at home, and then the weeks following. Think of us as the Verizon Wireless people in the ads. That big group of network people who follow verizon customers around. We're right behind you!!!
Take care. Ask away!!
Marguerite