Thank you Mary and Phylis ! My mind is doing 101 things right now but at least I am not trying to call someone from a remote like my mom last night. I keep telling myself I have to be strong for her. I have to be. My husband tells me that we are emotional cripples. We cry at a drop of a hat. This has to be ONE of the hardest things we will go through. My most worries are seeing him as soon as he comes out of surgery with all the tubes and wires and not looking good and then his INR. I believe once they tell us the surgery went well, I will be better too but not 100% till he goes home but even then I will still have some worries. I have so many people praying for him, the VR board, family, friends at work, everyone.