I let mine know the things I was most concerned about, and the team took great care to avoid them. They sent me off lala land while they were finishing the preparation. My wife said that I was talking to her during that time, but I don't remember it at all. Waking up in the ICU and the removal of the breathing tube are also vague memories for me, which is exactly what I wanted. My first clear memory was waking up for good sometime in the middle of the night and looking around the room. As soon as the ICU nurse saw I was awake, she tried to get me on my feet.