karen14
Well-known member
I chickened out! ... Didn't go to my cardio appt. I'm feeling SO bad about this. I couldn't sleep ALL night, worrying about it. I did reschedule for April 20th though. But here I did all the tests he asked me to do, then can't find the nerve to go and hear the results! Geez, me!
I guess this whole heart surgery thing was more traumatic for me than I even realized. First needing it within two weeks of seeing my cardiologist; then, to have the wrong valve put in and still be sick!
Sorry, I'm just venting. But I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Know what I mean? Plus, I don't know if I can survive another surgery, eke. The 1st surgeon told me I was "lucky to be alive," since I have a high tolerance to anesthesia, and them having to give me more. They thought I was in a medical coma and wouldn't wake up! Hear my fears running here? LOL. OMG. This sucks.
I guess this whole heart surgery thing was more traumatic for me than I even realized. First needing it within two weeks of seeing my cardiologist; then, to have the wrong valve put in and still be sick!
Sorry, I'm just venting. But I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Know what I mean? Plus, I don't know if I can survive another surgery, eke. The 1st surgeon told me I was "lucky to be alive," since I have a high tolerance to anesthesia, and them having to give me more. They thought I was in a medical coma and wouldn't wake up! Hear my fears running here? LOL. OMG. This sucks.