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Jane
I just wanted to sound off for a bit. If I bore you, just go onto the next thread!!!
As you know I am due to have surgery within the next 2 months. It is difficult waiting - I don't need to tell you that, I sometimes I am just so exhausted and have such horrible tightness in my chest, shoulders and neck. However, all in all, I remain fairly upbeat thinking I will be so much better this time next year.
The problem is my husband, Nick. He is a lovely man, but I have always been the one to sort out things in our family. I take care of the household budget and all the usual household chores. He will not cook, period. My son, Joe is an excellent cook and no doubt will help loads and we could always have takeaways occasionally. Plus I intend to do some cooking for the freezer over the next couple of weeks. So no real worry there.
The problem is his health - physical and mental. He had a couple of severe allergic reactions in August and September and has not been in work since 16th August. He has seen a consultant for the allergy and has had treatment, but he is still far from well.
He has no energy or muscle strength, and seems really low in himself - he has no "drive" whatsoever and is very irritable. He has also put on loads of weight. I have voiced my concerns to the GP and I am sure we will eventually get to the bottom of it. He is considering glandular fever, maybe even Cushing's syndrome (the latter at my request).
It is just SO hard, at a time when I need comfort and support, not only not getting any, but moreover having to support him totally. Yes I know that is what marriage is about, but it is such hard work motivating him to have a shave, make a cup of coffee, phone his mother - do ANYTHING that is not slumping on the sofa all day when I am feeling so awful myself. He says he is not overly worried about my operation and says to the GP that he is not depressed.
My feelings over the past 2 weeks have ranged from wanting a divorce(seriously) to being so worried about him. At times I get out of the house even though I know I should be resting, just for the sake of my sanity, then I get exhausted and this makes the whole thing worse. Sometimes it feels like I am forever pushing a rock uphill!!
I know I am doing all I can to sort it out with him, I guess I feel a bit (?a lot) resentful, having to do all the supporting when I feel I should be the one being supported and reassured right now. Then I think how selfish I am. I know he is unwell, and I shouldn't feel resentful. But I do.
Thanks for "listening." Any advice or words of wisdom welcome - if you haven't already clicked on the next thread!!
As you know I am due to have surgery within the next 2 months. It is difficult waiting - I don't need to tell you that, I sometimes I am just so exhausted and have such horrible tightness in my chest, shoulders and neck. However, all in all, I remain fairly upbeat thinking I will be so much better this time next year.
The problem is my husband, Nick. He is a lovely man, but I have always been the one to sort out things in our family. I take care of the household budget and all the usual household chores. He will not cook, period. My son, Joe is an excellent cook and no doubt will help loads and we could always have takeaways occasionally. Plus I intend to do some cooking for the freezer over the next couple of weeks. So no real worry there.
The problem is his health - physical and mental. He had a couple of severe allergic reactions in August and September and has not been in work since 16th August. He has seen a consultant for the allergy and has had treatment, but he is still far from well.
He has no energy or muscle strength, and seems really low in himself - he has no "drive" whatsoever and is very irritable. He has also put on loads of weight. I have voiced my concerns to the GP and I am sure we will eventually get to the bottom of it. He is considering glandular fever, maybe even Cushing's syndrome (the latter at my request).
It is just SO hard, at a time when I need comfort and support, not only not getting any, but moreover having to support him totally. Yes I know that is what marriage is about, but it is such hard work motivating him to have a shave, make a cup of coffee, phone his mother - do ANYTHING that is not slumping on the sofa all day when I am feeling so awful myself. He says he is not overly worried about my operation and says to the GP that he is not depressed.
My feelings over the past 2 weeks have ranged from wanting a divorce(seriously) to being so worried about him. At times I get out of the house even though I know I should be resting, just for the sake of my sanity, then I get exhausted and this makes the whole thing worse. Sometimes it feels like I am forever pushing a rock uphill!!
I know I am doing all I can to sort it out with him, I guess I feel a bit (?a lot) resentful, having to do all the supporting when I feel I should be the one being supported and reassured right now. Then I think how selfish I am. I know he is unwell, and I shouldn't feel resentful. But I do.
Thanks for "listening." Any advice or words of wisdom welcome - if you haven't already clicked on the next thread!!