Mark Wagner
Well-known member
I feel a little uncomfortable sitting down and writing this.
I believe in God, but due to my job schedule, I do not attend church. I have wonderful support from a wife whom gives me love, but in no way will allow me to feel sorry for myself. In that I am very grateful.
A month ago I urinated blood, and it has happened about three times since. The first thing I did was check my INR and it was fine. At that same time I began to feel terrible nausea, about 80% of my waking hours, and still do. My left side around my kidney's began hurting and my bladder and complete urinary tract started hurting and becoming very uncomfortable. I have tried but failed to keep my running schedule, because of a heavy work schedule and fatigue and pain and nausea. Two weeks ago I took my shirt off and noticed lumps on my ribs above my left kidney. One is the size of a 50 cent piece, and a couple of others the size of quarters. In the mean time my lower back and bones of the left hip and legs have been almost unbearable with pain. They are also concerned, because my balance is off. The doctor said he expects that from a 70 year old, but not a man 45.
A cat scan was done, but no mass has been found. That's a good thing. My kidney's have stones , but according to the urologist, not large enough to cause the pain and nausea I am experencing. More blood tests are being done, and today they will be removing two of the tumors and sending them to pathology at the University of Washington. My prostate is infected (embarrasing) so I am now on very heavy anti-biotics. Doxocyclin (spelling, please forgive me) Celebrex, Zantac, and Nausea medicine and prescription sudafed, along with my coumadin, 80 mg aspirin, and nuerontin. I feel like the local legal junkie!
You know I find that I am really not scared, for I know all things are for a reason. If I fear anything, it is not being able to support my family. Right now I am trying not to look at what it can be, but what we know. I spent the first weeks scaring the hell out of myself.
I am looking at this wondering why I am writing this. Maybe I really am scared. I just want to know whats going on and I am sure in time I will find out. I started to have a panic attack a couple of nights ago. I think it is just the worry and so many drugs.
When you face things like this, suddenly running marathons means little. Their is so much in life more important than being caught up in ourselves and working. When all said and done, I hope I remember this lesson. I probably have drove myself to this point as far as my health is concerned.
I know some of you worry. Please don't. A prayer would be nice and appreciated. It feels good to get a lot of this off my chest. That way I will not dump the emotion on my wife. I have to live with her! I admit there has been a little watering of the eyes as I have written this. That is probably a good thing, for I feel a little better now.
Thanks for listening.
Mark
PS All so thank you for the birthday wish. I am sorry I did not respond.
I believe in God, but due to my job schedule, I do not attend church. I have wonderful support from a wife whom gives me love, but in no way will allow me to feel sorry for myself. In that I am very grateful.
A month ago I urinated blood, and it has happened about three times since. The first thing I did was check my INR and it was fine. At that same time I began to feel terrible nausea, about 80% of my waking hours, and still do. My left side around my kidney's began hurting and my bladder and complete urinary tract started hurting and becoming very uncomfortable. I have tried but failed to keep my running schedule, because of a heavy work schedule and fatigue and pain and nausea. Two weeks ago I took my shirt off and noticed lumps on my ribs above my left kidney. One is the size of a 50 cent piece, and a couple of others the size of quarters. In the mean time my lower back and bones of the left hip and legs have been almost unbearable with pain. They are also concerned, because my balance is off. The doctor said he expects that from a 70 year old, but not a man 45.
A cat scan was done, but no mass has been found. That's a good thing. My kidney's have stones , but according to the urologist, not large enough to cause the pain and nausea I am experencing. More blood tests are being done, and today they will be removing two of the tumors and sending them to pathology at the University of Washington. My prostate is infected (embarrasing) so I am now on very heavy anti-biotics. Doxocyclin (spelling, please forgive me) Celebrex, Zantac, and Nausea medicine and prescription sudafed, along with my coumadin, 80 mg aspirin, and nuerontin. I feel like the local legal junkie!
You know I find that I am really not scared, for I know all things are for a reason. If I fear anything, it is not being able to support my family. Right now I am trying not to look at what it can be, but what we know. I spent the first weeks scaring the hell out of myself.
I am looking at this wondering why I am writing this. Maybe I really am scared. I just want to know whats going on and I am sure in time I will find out. I started to have a panic attack a couple of nights ago. I think it is just the worry and so many drugs.
When you face things like this, suddenly running marathons means little. Their is so much in life more important than being caught up in ourselves and working. When all said and done, I hope I remember this lesson. I probably have drove myself to this point as far as my health is concerned.
I know some of you worry. Please don't. A prayer would be nice and appreciated. It feels good to get a lot of this off my chest. That way I will not dump the emotion on my wife. I have to live with her!
I admit there has been a little watering of the eyes as I have written this. That is probably a good thing, for I feel a little better now. Thanks for listening.
Mark
PS All so thank you for the birthday wish. I am sorry I did not respond.
