update on my mom
update on my mom
Here is my update. Today is day 2. She is on 50% ventilation so that is better than 70% she is still too exhausted to "come off" She recognized my sister, wiggling extremities as I said. I will go see her tomorrow. My little sister who is 16 years younger than me continues to tell me what to do and not to do and while I understand she may mean well...and she has health care proxy because she lives near my mom BUT I worked in ICU for 7 years and understand about patients on the vent. I am trying very hard NOT to take it personally. Its hard. Maybe she does not realize ALL that I know. Maybe she does not trust I will be quite and not disturb our mother...I am not sure what she is thinking but I am not monitoring her visits and I feel a bit resentful that she is tyring to monitor mine. I am not angry, more annoeyd at the "contorl" thing going on here. ANYHOW.... I am going there tomorrow, its just 1/2 hour for me to st peters. She said DONT FORGET you can only stay 15 minutes....OMG. This is where I lose my patience and you know I need to concentrate on my MOTHER, on my SELF and my MY health (just had colon rescection) and my grown children and my plans for christmas. Everything will fall into place, some people feel a need to fit every piece of life into a perfect little nitch and it just doesnt work that way, at least not for me. I am an emotional woman and thats who I am, when i am happy...look out, when I am sad...look out...LOL. See I can still smile and I can feel the good Lord about smiling on all of us, and I hear him saying...I've got you covered, enjoy the great holiday of Christams and and the blessings it holds. as is my wish for all of you....blessing to you all . Shelleyanne