Unlike everyone it seems, I’m 17 with a mechanical heart valve, I had it replaced last year and I experienced no symptoms beforehand but whatever.
The tick has ruined my life, I’m now extremely depressed because of it. Idk if I got really unlucky and I got a super loud valve, but this valve is extremely loud. I don’t want to wear T shirts anymore in the summer, in fact now I hate summer and wish it was always winter.
I don’t want to do my exams in the summer in the hall, because I will be emitting such an embarrassing noise I have no control over, and there is no escape from this hell I now find myself in.
idk what I can do anymore, I never expected this and it has completely ruined my life in every aspect. I don’t even like sitting in cars if the engine is off unless my door is open because the valve is that loud.
Loud? You should try two mechanical valves beating simultaneously. My wife can hear it (sometimes from across the dinner table) but it does change. There are times when it is not that loud. Not sure why but changing body position changes the sound and having a full stomach changes it. I thought it would bother me too, but I consciensously decided not to think that way but to look at it this way: the valves are necessary to keep me alive, so each tick is reassuring because it shows my heart is busy doing what it's supposed to do: pumping oxygenated blood to the rest of my body and the alternative is that it stops. And if it stops, I stop too. So think of it as your friend and that it's keeping you going, so that you have the rest of your life to look forward to. Some people don't. We are all unique people and have unique personalities, thoughts and anxieties. So that means we all are not the same and should not feel pressure to conform to some idea of "normal". Nobody's normal. But as a teenager you might feel differently, I know I did. Sure you want to be accepted and not be different because some peolple make fun of "different". Don't let that bother you. You are you and there's nobody else like you, so don't try to be like anyone else. Be you and love yourself as you are. Your parents do; ask them.