Nupur
Well-known member
I am having a very hard time controlling my mind. I have a surgeon consult coming up and either it is a coincidence or my mind playing tricks but last couple of days I have felt strange, dizzy, weird shortness of breath, all kinds of "symptoms". To make matters worse, the BP monitor showed the little icon of extra heartbeat once yesterday. Just once, mind you. But I just can't stop my racing mind from reaching the worst case scenarios. My cardio has said not to take Xanax so much. Well, I took two yesterday and feel worse today. I have realized that my panic is not so much fear or the surgery than the fear of unknown. Once I know exactly what is to be done, I'll feel better. So I do believe that I will be much calm through surgery than I am in the waiting room.