pedimed
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Ok, I just need to vent for a minute! SO thanks in advance for anyone interested and willing to read through and hand over some good old advice/support etc...
I am a 32 yr old single female just now s/p AVR and ablation of aortic root aneurysm. Postoperatively I did not feel depressed or 'down' at all but today, whew, it all hit like I walked into a brick wall.. now, dont know if this is postoperative state, premenstrual state, a combination, or just the current state of affairs, which are as follows: I am sitting here alone with 2 weeks left of an 8 week sick leave after surgery, I am also looking for a new job, and recently interviewed in Seattle (the position(s) is perfect-the only caveat, huge caveat for me is the weather) I also have not formally been offered the position... and do not know if I want to accept it when it is offered, if it is offered... the job I really wanted I found out I'm high on the list for but there is another more qualified person they are planning to offer the position to.. So, I continue to look and have made at least 4 phone calls today only to leave 4 messages... Dont know where everyone is these days
UGh, I know I have things well, I have a decent paying position, (although with a very narcisistic supervisor-causing the department to do very poorly in my opinion since he is a force NOT to be reckoned with), a nice apartment, why I can sit here and all of a sudden tear up at just the writing of this is so frustrating.. I want to be excited about my job, or the potential jobs but feel so dysthymic about jsut about everything..
I was/am seriously considering medicating this problem but know once I find a new position and place I like to live (and colleagues who respect me and eachother) I will be in a good place and enjoying things..
Ultimately I am writing this here bc I think my myriad medical situations frustrate me the most, at times they seriously inhibit my ability to perform at the 100% that I know I am capable of...for example, optical migraines, I have a possible diagnosis of Ectodermal Dysplasia, who knows really if thats what it is, and along with this goes random autoimmune problems, which I think cause my fatigue (although the fatigue ahs improved since the AVR-thankfully). Since the AVR i have had the typical optical migraines BUT also 3 episodes of a brown circle from my left periphery (not there when I close my left eye) developing and then to resolve a few min later.. no other sx at the time.. I am still waiting to hear back from the cardiologist on this one...
I wrote to you all bc you understand the day-to-day with a chronic illness..
Sorry for rambling, thanks for "listening"
Pedimed
I am a 32 yr old single female just now s/p AVR and ablation of aortic root aneurysm. Postoperatively I did not feel depressed or 'down' at all but today, whew, it all hit like I walked into a brick wall.. now, dont know if this is postoperative state, premenstrual state, a combination, or just the current state of affairs, which are as follows: I am sitting here alone with 2 weeks left of an 8 week sick leave after surgery, I am also looking for a new job, and recently interviewed in Seattle (the position(s) is perfect-the only caveat, huge caveat for me is the weather) I also have not formally been offered the position... and do not know if I want to accept it when it is offered, if it is offered... the job I really wanted I found out I'm high on the list for but there is another more qualified person they are planning to offer the position to.. So, I continue to look and have made at least 4 phone calls today only to leave 4 messages... Dont know where everyone is these days
UGh, I know I have things well, I have a decent paying position, (although with a very narcisistic supervisor-causing the department to do very poorly in my opinion since he is a force NOT to be reckoned with), a nice apartment, why I can sit here and all of a sudden tear up at just the writing of this is so frustrating.. I want to be excited about my job, or the potential jobs but feel so dysthymic about jsut about everything..
I was/am seriously considering medicating this problem but know once I find a new position and place I like to live (and colleagues who respect me and eachother) I will be in a good place and enjoying things..
Ultimately I am writing this here bc I think my myriad medical situations frustrate me the most, at times they seriously inhibit my ability to perform at the 100% that I know I am capable of...for example, optical migraines, I have a possible diagnosis of Ectodermal Dysplasia, who knows really if thats what it is, and along with this goes random autoimmune problems, which I think cause my fatigue (although the fatigue ahs improved since the AVR-thankfully). Since the AVR i have had the typical optical migraines BUT also 3 episodes of a brown circle from my left periphery (not there when I close my left eye) developing and then to resolve a few min later.. no other sx at the time.. I am still waiting to hear back from the cardiologist on this one...
I wrote to you all bc you understand the day-to-day with a chronic illness..
Sorry for rambling, thanks for "listening"
Pedimed