Trinityheart8891
Well-known member
hey guys,
I know someone is about to beat the crap out of me, I wanna beat the crap out of myself, I am really confused right now, and dont know what to do/what happened etc.......Im REALLY frustrated
last night I felt like crap all night....really tired, tight chested all night off and on, pretty short of breath off and on (side note:tried albuterol, it didnt help, all it did was make me jittery and buzzy, at least that got me through the first part of the night) (been that way abt a week now, went to the docs, she wasnt concerned, ran some bloodwork, all which came back normal)
well, last night about 11:30 or so, I think I blacked out: I remember feeling really out of breath and crappy so I put my back against the wall and everything started to get fuzzy (I was in the dining room alone) I remember starting to slide down the wall but I don't remember hitting the floor (thank god, I was sitting upright) I remember opening my eyes, not knowing how long I was out (it must have only been a minute or so, if that) my head was slumped on my chest (I was almost folded over head in lap) everything was still fuzzy and I was really out of breath, I sat there for a few minutes and tried to catch my breath, it slowly came back, I got up and went to the office, I broke down hysterically in front of my manager, last night I thought it was just a grey out, so I stayed at work I assured her I was fine she was gonna call someone else in (I know: WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!?!?! we were really in trouble last night, it was not a good situation) after sitting down for about 20 minutes, I got back up and started back in (I did really easy stuff for almost an hour, I felt OK so I just kept going, and got it done, taking it pretty easy, of course)
I think it was just a protective mechanism (maybe just pigheaddedness), but last night I pushed it out of my mind and kept going, this morning I got up and started thinking about it and I am scared out of my mind, I dont know what to do, I have no one with me right now, so I just texted my dad asking him to call me (he is doing something for work abt an hour away, I would have called him last night, but he had to get up @ 4:30 this AM) my mom is out of state with her B/F. if I went to the ER right now they wouldnt find anything, and probably just tell me it was somethin stupid (Im guessing) and I am on my way to work in abt 8 mins (I know, I know, I cant call out though)
anyways, thanks for getting this far if you did, and any ideas would be appreciated, I think I am gonna call the doc on call, and see what he says, as well as talking to my father
Morgan, 20
I know someone is about to beat the crap out of me, I wanna beat the crap out of myself, I am really confused right now, and dont know what to do/what happened etc.......Im REALLY frustrated
last night I felt like crap all night....really tired, tight chested all night off and on, pretty short of breath off and on (side note:tried albuterol, it didnt help, all it did was make me jittery and buzzy, at least that got me through the first part of the night) (been that way abt a week now, went to the docs, she wasnt concerned, ran some bloodwork, all which came back normal)
well, last night about 11:30 or so, I think I blacked out: I remember feeling really out of breath and crappy so I put my back against the wall and everything started to get fuzzy (I was in the dining room alone) I remember starting to slide down the wall but I don't remember hitting the floor (thank god, I was sitting upright) I remember opening my eyes, not knowing how long I was out (it must have only been a minute or so, if that) my head was slumped on my chest (I was almost folded over head in lap) everything was still fuzzy and I was really out of breath, I sat there for a few minutes and tried to catch my breath, it slowly came back, I got up and went to the office, I broke down hysterically in front of my manager, last night I thought it was just a grey out, so I stayed at work I assured her I was fine she was gonna call someone else in (I know: WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!?!?! we were really in trouble last night, it was not a good situation) after sitting down for about 20 minutes, I got back up and started back in (I did really easy stuff for almost an hour, I felt OK so I just kept going, and got it done, taking it pretty easy, of course)
I think it was just a protective mechanism (maybe just pigheaddedness), but last night I pushed it out of my mind and kept going, this morning I got up and started thinking about it and I am scared out of my mind, I dont know what to do, I have no one with me right now, so I just texted my dad asking him to call me (he is doing something for work abt an hour away, I would have called him last night, but he had to get up @ 4:30 this AM) my mom is out of state with her B/F. if I went to the ER right now they wouldnt find anything, and probably just tell me it was somethin stupid (Im guessing) and I am on my way to work in abt 8 mins (I know, I know, I cant call out though)
anyways, thanks for getting this far if you did, and any ideas would be appreciated, I think I am gonna call the doc on call, and see what he says, as well as talking to my father
Morgan, 20