I could not do much physically for Laura, but where she took care of my many physical needs, I had to be there from the first lucid moment to reassure her that I was still all there for her, and that I would, by God's grace, be always there for her. Even during one of my less-than-lucid moments I tried to give her a kiss while I was intubated! Later I was able to give her a normal kiss--just to let her know that I was really back for keeps including the love part. During some 'flashback' times I'd wake up enough to let her lay her hand on my chest or whatever she needed to know that I was still okay. I let her know over and over that I loved her and when she cried I would comfort her. So we were both in this together. Gradually, as my physical condition improved, I was able to resume chores and driving a little at a time, but still whenever she needed to lay her head on my chest (when the healing allowed it) I would quietly hold her as she listened to my heart beating (yes it's fast, but it's
normal too!), and then she'd have some peace and could sleep better.
So even the patient half of a marriage has something to contribute, even if it amounts to little more than cheer leading and emotional support at first. This is vital, though. The spouse has been through the trauma, too! Wide awake for the entire event, to boot! Someone once said (I think Dr. McCoy in some Star Trek novel) "The only thing worse than me suffering terribly, is watching helplessly as someone else I deeply care for suffers terribly." It's true, even worn out old statements like "This is going to hurt me a lot more than it's going to hurt you." just prior to administering a spank, really mean something to the parent who has to do the spanking. We're married "in sickness and in health." It never becomes more apparent what the "sickness" part means than when one of the married couple has an exceptionally close brush with death and comes out the other side. True, both are still alive, but the marriage will never be the same again. Whatever doesn't destroy you probably will strengthen you. I've never been closer to Laura than after the surgery. So while Laura had to arrange pillows in bizarre ways to support me when I first got home, I arranged myself similarly to support her, too. In many ways we're better for it--though some days it still is difficult... We'll get through these times together, too!
Chris