wasnt sure if this was appropriate, but I think it is, small vent/rant

[Trinityheart8891]

hey guys......
I love this site for just this reason, thanks again before I even start!

its not that big a deal, but tomorrow I have a scholarship interview at our local hospital, this could change my life....immensely.....I mean a guaranteed job, with benefits and stuff for at least 2 years, plus $2000-$2500/semester for school, and its local, no changing any medical professionals, or any of that jazz and I can stay close to family, and not have to drive too far to see anyone.

so, your asking whats the deal?.....Im freaking out about my scar, I wrote my essay about how my CHD has influenced me to be an RT and how it will make me an "effective and efficient advocate" for my patients but there is still something in me that makes me nervous about showing my scar and making this well known to them. Will it effect my chances of getting this? its not supposed to and I know that. Will it change their expectations of me? it shouldnt....it doesnt make me any less capable of being a damn good RT. where the heck is this stuff coming from? self doubt? I know, I know......there is no point, I'm as qualified, if not more qualified than anyone else interviewing for the same scholarship, heck, I dont think there are that many people out there looking into this thing who have a cumulative college scholarship of a 3.938......

I know, this sounds crazy, it sounds insane to me when I think about it logically, but emotionally, there is still something in me throwing these thoughts/feelings around, and I guess I just needed to express that before I go into that interview tomorrow so I dont have anything to hold me back. I know that one of the best things for me to do, is to walk into that interview with an air of confidence, and expressing this is gonna help me with that.....there is nothing for me to doubt, I just need to get over it......

off to bed now

 

[hensylee]

YOUR WORDS:

"I know that the best thing for me to do, is to walk into that interview with an air of confidence....."

You have answered your own question. Best wishes, happy thoughts, confidence, you know you can, we know you can. Go Go Go Go.........

 

[Nancy]

I think what you are experiencing is ordinary fear that something beyond your control could snatch this exceptional and ideal opportunity away from you. Focus on seeing yourself in the job and doing what you love and do best. Keep that beautiful smile on your face even though you may feel like Jello inside. Shake hands with confidence, wear your best outfit talk, to yourself positively all the way to the interview.

You can do it, I know you can. You have a strong will to succeed in the job. I believe you will get the opportunity you so dearly want. Don't allow a negative thought enter your mind. You have control over that.

Good luck! And let us know how it went.

 

[Dennis S]

I agree--you have answered your own question. I bet you are going t wow them!

 

[Superbob]

Be bold. Go for it. You can do it. No doubts.

 

[Mary]

hey guys......
I love this site for just this reason, thanks again before I even start!

its not that big a deal, but tomorrow I have a scholarship interview at our local hospital, this could change my life....immensely.....I mean a guaranteed job, with benefits and stuff for at least 2 years, plus $2000-$2500/semester for school, and its local, no changing any medical professionals, or any of that jazz and I can stay close to family, and not have to drive too far to see anyone.

so, your asking whats the deal?.....Im freaking out about my scar, I wrote my essay about how my CHD has influenced me to be an RT and how it will make me an "effective and efficient advocate" for my patients but there is still something in me that makes me nervous about showing my scar and making this well known to them. Will it effect my chances of getting this? its not supposed to and I know that. Will it change their expectations of me? it shouldnt....it doesnt make me any less capable of being a damn good RT. where the heck is this stuff coming from? self doubt? I know, I know......there is no point, I'm as qualified, if not more qualified than anyone else interviewing for the same scholarship, heck, I dont think there are that many people out there looking into this thing who have a cumulative college scholarship of a 3.938......

I know, this sounds crazy, it sounds insane to me when I think about it logically, but emotionally, there is still something in me throwing these thoughts/feelings around, and I guess I just needed to express that before I go into that interview tomorrow so I dont have anything to hold me back. I know that one of the best things for me to do, is to walk into that interview with an air of confidence, and expressing this is gonna help me with that.....there is nothing for me to doubt, I just need to get over it......

off to bed now

I sincerely doubt that your scar will have any bearing on the selection process. The fact that you have stated that your experience has made you more compassionate towards patients will.
Please don't forget that most health care professionals enter the field expecting to be effective and efficient providers of care for all their patients.
You have an extra plus--you have had the OHS experience.
Look professional (surely you aren't planning to wear anything low cut?), anticipate answers to questions you know they will ask, and stay upbeat and cheerful. Everyone loves cheerful!
Good luck!

 

[WayneGM]

As others have said, I think you've answered your own question.

Personally, I think of my scar as a badge of honour and I'm actually feeling more confident about myself. Getting through OHS was a significant obstacle, and therefore achievement, and I believe I'm a stronger person for it. You should, too. Good luck with the interview.

 

[Bina]

Hey Trinity,
You are not venting or ranting.....just expressing some feelings about a very big day for you. I think OHS leaves most of us with some level of self doubt; try to push that aside and focus on you being very smart and qualified.

Scars can be visible or invisible; it is up to us how we deal with them

 

[Cooker]

I don't think they will ask to see your scar As others have said just be yourself and go for it. Take along a copy of the article posted yesterday about the lady who climbed Mt. Everest. She was sporting a St Jude mechanical. Should quiet any doubts they may have about OHS and the ability to do your job.

Tom

 

[catwoman]

Good luck! You'll have a successful interview, I'm sure.

 

[geebee]

I am not sure why you would need to "show" your scar unless they require a physical for this interview. Even if that is the case, they know your history from your essay - right?

Hold your head high and let them see just how strong all this has made you. That will convince them that you can make a huge difference in the lives of people you touch.

Best of luck to you.

 

[Trinityheart8891]

hey
Im just getting ready to jump in the shower now..... thanks for the replies! they are really helping..... as far as showing the scar, its almost impossible not to show, Im not wearing anything particularly "low cut" Im wearing a button up shirt with a tank top under it, its pretty conservative actually. its really hard to find something that is appropriate for a 20 year old that doesnt look like it belongs on a 50 year old without showing my scar, they cut me from the very bottom of my neck to like 3-4 inches below my ribcage......

but as someone said, its a badge of courage its my "zipper" and I like to have a love hate relationship with it sometimes......

oh well,

be back with an update tonight.....

thanks again
Morgan, 20