Mama2Rylan
Well-known member
Hi Guys!
So these past few days have been a little tough on me. I have just been really stressed with school (I?m in my second semester of college) and raising my son by myself, plus dealing with my heart condition. I mean luckily I have been doing well since my surgery (I had open heart August 2005). I just feel that people don?t really understand what I went through. I mean I know I can?t get too hard on them because they haven?t been through it before, but they are always making comments to me like ?your always going to the doctor? or telling me they think I?m depressed because I seem to always be worried about my health. It?s starting to really get to me because I can?t just change the way I view my body anymore. I remember for the longest time I acted like I didn?t have a heart condition and that there was nothing wrong with me, well then after going through the past few years having doctors telling me that I could die, it takes a lot out of a person. I can?t be the same happy-go-lucky person I was anymore, because my heart is always going to worry me. And I am fine with that, I just don?t think the others understand that.
I mean there are times where I get really tired and I say that I can?t do something. I?ve had people tell me, that I was just using my heart as an excuse and basically that I need to get over it. I just don?t know what to say to that. Has anyone else felt that way? Like everyone was thinking you should just somehow magically forget about everything you went through and act like it?s all good? I would think that people would want me to stay on top of my condition, I mean for the first time I am finally aware of what my heart problems are and how they need to be treated. I?m not ignoring my problems anymore, and I am trying to get my life back. It?s just frustrating to me when the people that are suppose to be supporting me are talking about me so negatively, almost like they think I am just making stuff up. To be honest, I do get scared when my heart skips a beat or when I run out of breath, but isn?t it normal to worry about stuff like that?
I don?t mean to rant and rave here, but I just wanted to know if anyone else felt like their family didn?t understand what they were going through. At least I have you guys to complain to , thank you so much for listening.