Hi
harrietW;n863025 said:
... Next is surgery but they aren't going in without an exit point...
tough ... very tough
If lm honest pillicle there have been many many days when l no desire to wake up .... to just let me go it's aweful isn't it to not have the desire to go on when the pain 8s so great.
Here's hoping for answers !![/QUOTE]
Harriet to my mind there are no answers, certainly none that I can be sure of. When my beautiful wife died just after my Dad I became certain that all we learn about God is plain wrong. Maybe God exists and maybe God does not. What ever I'm entirely sure that God does totally nothing to interfere on this world. Perhaps God can not.
I had lots of problems with (well meaning) nurses in ICU and on the ward after my debridment surgeries started (which was about 2 months after my wifes funeral) but when anyone said they'd pray for me I got intensely angry. If God wanted to help then why the hell did that cancer exist in her brain and why the hell did I have this infection in my chest. I really had no interest in being here. Now I'm still here.
I do not know if my feelings of Anitas presence are just a fiction of my subconscious or are what I perceive them to be, but they are there.
I am not "sure" that there is no God ... but I am sure God doesn't have any mercy. I guess its "spare the rod and spoil the child".
Anyway, if you need / wish anyone to "listen" or just chat to about whatever the fcuk (that's the Sunglasses brand) then just let me know by PM and I'll get in touch.
I can't change anything, but sometimes its good to have a laugh about the way "5hit" happens. I mean what else can one do?
Best Wishes