Well, pgammo, I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that it seems you may not be enjoying the waiting too much... :wink2:
So, I have good news! On Monday, you get to be put asleep for a little while, and when you wake up, there will be no more waiting. It will be over and you will have done it. The worst will be behind you. Sure, recovery will be a challenge, and it will take some effort on your part, but likely for the first time since you found out about all of this, you will feel like you have some real control of your situation again. You get to be in charge of getting better. Now, yes, it's slightly more than a 9 to 5 job, it will take a little overtime, but hey, so does pretty much any job with great benefits. But the point is: once the waiting is over, the return to normal begins. You may be feeling like each day of waiting is getting worse recently...well, pretty soon, each day of recovery will only be getting better.
The plan for my last few days was very simple: I did my favorite things with my favorite people. Crazy as this sounds, it was a vacation of sorts. I know it's not easy, but just try to have a little fun tomorrow too. After all, you have the easy job on Monday. Best wishes to you and looking forward to hearing great news from you very soon.