Megan
Well-known member
hi everyone: just wanted to say hi and sorry for losing touch. Im so sad to hear about TBONE. This is just so terrible and my thoughts and prayers are with his family and this vr family and for you Ross especially. I tried to read what happend but then I had to stop because sometimes for me this is too close to home and it gets me really anxious since I almost didnt make it over that mountain myself and I start to worry about how in the world Im going to repay GOd for the miracle of my life! . In fact, Im sure this is partly the reason why Ive been missing here- I've been in a pretty bad funk-ok depression I think. I dont know if it was just too much this summer with the kids home and not enough rest and breaks after the first month of recovery or just the normal stay at home mom who wants to jump onthe the next train to anywhere but here! but its been rough. I did get myself out of town with the girlfriends this past weekend and it helped immensely.
Im wondering if anyone out there has dealt with post op depression at post op 3 months? any tips to pull myself up by my bootstraps?
this saturday it will be the end of "the first 100 days" post surgery and living life with this new ATS valve of mine. All things considered, im almost back to 100% physically i think. I took my first bike ride this past week, Ive taught my 4 yr old to ride a 2 wheeler- running after him! swam 2 laps one day in the pool...and im in cardiac rehab so hopefully inanother few weeks ill increase my cardio endurance more. only residual is achiness in my chest- especially in the morning-the head games- and then the clicking. the valve itslef during the day is quiet as a mouse- cant hear it at all. But once the sun goes down and/or it gets quiet- (ie the kids go to bed!) i can hear AND feel it pounding and clicking away. Im still taking the beta blocker (metroprolol) and wondering if maybe I hsould be taking more or less. dont know. just want it to stop so i can further wean myself off the xanax at night which i still take at least a few times a week. any thoughts?
thanks as always for listening and providing any insights to help me feel normal again!
megan
Im wondering if anyone out there has dealt with post op depression at post op 3 months? any tips to pull myself up by my bootstraps?
this saturday it will be the end of "the first 100 days" post surgery and living life with this new ATS valve of mine. All things considered, im almost back to 100% physically i think. I took my first bike ride this past week, Ive taught my 4 yr old to ride a 2 wheeler- running after him! swam 2 laps one day in the pool...and im in cardiac rehab so hopefully inanother few weeks ill increase my cardio endurance more. only residual is achiness in my chest- especially in the morning-the head games- and then the clicking. the valve itslef during the day is quiet as a mouse- cant hear it at all. But once the sun goes down and/or it gets quiet- (ie the kids go to bed!) i can hear AND feel it pounding and clicking away. Im still taking the beta blocker (metroprolol) and wondering if maybe I hsould be taking more or less. dont know. just want it to stop so i can further wean myself off the xanax at night which i still take at least a few times a week. any thoughts?
thanks as always for listening and providing any insights to help me feel normal again!
megan