I never had surgery ...surgery it's probably years away I just meant I've been a lonely and lonely and single most of my life and I hate it... I don't know how to get a girlfriend I barely even know how to get on a date on 56 never married no kids only had two girlfriends my entire life I don't understand anything about women at all it's too painful to try to chase them I had no luck with women my entire life the rejection Hurts The Suffering hurts it hurts so much but being alone hurts too but I don't have a faintest idea how to meet girls or how to get a girlfriend in Clueless I'm just so lonely
Don't hate being alone all the time, try for a small part of the time. I have a pet, a dog, from a rescue, named Dixie. We rescued each other. I feel you might get a pet, emotional support(does not have to be trained). Mine is very supportive all the time. She has cataracts and I cannot afford the surgery for her. But she will eventually go blind and she lean on me and will adapt as many dogs have.
I never let not having a man, get me down. I don't hate men, just haven't met the right one. I have abused by a close relation years as a young girl, left its mark, but I moved on. Do not worry about having a woman, for there is one that you will someday meet, just not yet.
Do not hate life due to that being alone. It does have advantages, like not a nagging wife bugging you everyday to do something around the house. Or wants to snuggle all the time. Or wants to be nosy. And no kids. LOL!
I just grin and bare it everyday in my loneliness. You can't miss what you do not have. True words of wisdom. Not everyone is meant to marry, you can have a female friend. Nothing wrong with that. I have a few male friends, nothing intimate, just friends. Just stop pressuring yourself in wife hunting. You have nothing to prove to anyone. Just relax and enjoy life. I am. Hugs for today.
