Jkm7
Well-known member
When I woke this morning, immediately it popped into my head today is one year since my second OHS and when I received my replacement valve. Of course I am grateful and still amazed at the wonders our surgeons accomplish.
But my stomach went into the same anxiety pattern I felt one year ago. The head and body remember! I recognized that anxiety instantly as just what I experienced in the weeks leading up to that surgery.
I've calmed now and gotten on with my day but deep down I guess I will never fully accept I am now well and fixed...... does it always lurk in the deep recesses the trauma we experience? It is such a profound thing to undergo.
In any case, DH is a darling and seeing as we have snow predicted for early morning hours Sunday and possibly right through until Tuesday with potential for a foot or more, he insists we have a proper celebration of our 'new chance' tonight.
Thank you to everyone here. I learned so much here and felt a comfort knowing there were so many others in the world going through what I was. I didn't know many in my local community.
Wishing many happy, healthy valve-versaries to all.
But my stomach went into the same anxiety pattern I felt one year ago. The head and body remember! I recognized that anxiety instantly as just what I experienced in the weeks leading up to that surgery.
I've calmed now and gotten on with my day but deep down I guess I will never fully accept I am now well and fixed...... does it always lurk in the deep recesses the trauma we experience? It is such a profound thing to undergo.
In any case, DH is a darling and seeing as we have snow predicted for early morning hours Sunday and possibly right through until Tuesday with potential for a foot or more, he insists we have a proper celebration of our 'new chance' tonight.
Thank you to everyone here. I learned so much here and felt a comfort knowing there were so many others in the world going through what I was. I didn't know many in my local community.
Wishing many happy, healthy valve-versaries to all.