I just need somewhere to vent, I think. I was supposed to have my AVR this Thursday. Yesterday I got home to a message on my answering machine that my pre-op urine sample came back with bacteria in it. So I had to go in at the break of dawn this morning to give another urine sample and hope that it comes back in time AND is bacteria-free. I'm not very optimistic about it at the moment because I was starting to think I felt a little different like a UTI could be coming on this weekend. So, they told me if there is bacteria in this one, I will have to postpone surgery until the first week of October.
I am sooooo tired!!!!! I am a school teacher, but I feel like I just might be zombie teacher. I trudge to work everyday just trying to get through. It's not fair to my students and it's not fiar to me. And now I may have to do this for at least two more weeks? Lets just say that I'm not sure how many people could have possibly missed my epic breakdown after the phone call I made to the surgeon today. There were many, many tears. I know it's in my best interest for me to be infection-free, so don't get me wrong. But I just don't know how I'm going to continue to function for two more weeks. I just don't know. . .
And, I just came off of a sinus surgery about 1 month ago. There was an almost cancellation of that one as well, which also had a major meltdown associated with it since that would have created even more scheduling issues for this surgery. So I've been SURVIVING life for the last month. Nothing more. Just surviving. Can anyone feel my pain?
Oh, and on top of just generally not feeling well, now I have to rearrange sub plans and my parents coming into town (they are still coming right now since we don't know for sure if the surgery will happen). The hard thing is that my grandmother is on hospice and they are having to leave her for a surgery that may not happen right now. And there's no way I can visit the way I feel. I would love to see her again, but that will only happen if she lives long enough for me to get through this and recover from surgery.
So. . . I'm not trying to complain. I'm just taking it really hard and need some encouragement. Does anyone else feel like the walking dead as they approach their surgery. I've made my peace with whatever happens during surgery, but I just need it to happen already! Anyone else felt this way?
I am sooooo tired!!!!! I am a school teacher, but I feel like I just might be zombie teacher. I trudge to work everyday just trying to get through. It's not fair to my students and it's not fiar to me. And now I may have to do this for at least two more weeks? Lets just say that I'm not sure how many people could have possibly missed my epic breakdown after the phone call I made to the surgeon today. There were many, many tears. I know it's in my best interest for me to be infection-free, so don't get me wrong. But I just don't know how I'm going to continue to function for two more weeks. I just don't know. . .
And, I just came off of a sinus surgery about 1 month ago. There was an almost cancellation of that one as well, which also had a major meltdown associated with it since that would have created even more scheduling issues for this surgery. So I've been SURVIVING life for the last month. Nothing more. Just surviving. Can anyone feel my pain?
Oh, and on top of just generally not feeling well, now I have to rearrange sub plans and my parents coming into town (they are still coming right now since we don't know for sure if the surgery will happen). The hard thing is that my grandmother is on hospice and they are having to leave her for a surgery that may not happen right now. And there's no way I can visit the way I feel. I would love to see her again, but that will only happen if she lives long enough for me to get through this and recover from surgery.
So. . . I'm not trying to complain. I'm just taking it really hard and need some encouragement. Does anyone else feel like the walking dead as they approach their surgery. I've made my peace with whatever happens during surgery, but I just need it to happen already! Anyone else felt this way?