Be Strong
Be Strong
As I stated in one of my posts a while back, I was in denial pretty much since I was diagnosed in 1992. I was blessed / lucky / fortunate to not need the surgery until this year (really should have been done last year, but again ... denial). Again, I am blessed / lucky / fortunate to not have done serious permanent damage to the heart muscle. Sure, I had many, many years to prepare for this, but again - denial. In 1992, the cardioligist told me that if not fixed, the heart would basically explode. I never talked about that with anyone, put it in the back of my mind, and then this year, the current cardioligist said the same thing! Talk about a wake up call! I had the surgery, had some bad days in the hospital, but go back to the moment I woke up after the surgery -- I woke up! Seeing my family around me was the best thing. Even the bad days and the one day I thought I was going back in surgery because of A-fib, high BP, and countless other problems, after I went home I have felt great each and every day.
Don't get me wrong, I think about "why me?" alot. I've come to the realization that there is nothing I can do about it, because I had the condition. Get fixed or die is an eye opener. I, like many on here, was relatively healthy my entire life. Even with the condition, ran, played baseball, softball, football, soccer, etc. We all deal with it differently and for some, this forum is great relief for the burden. Some need professional advice. You, or those close to you are the best judge for that.
Take care and I sincerely hope that your mental health catches up to the physical health real soon.