dj/utvolsfan
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Hello! I have some news I want to share with you.....Some of you already know, but I've been too busy fighting my other demons to get in touch with all my closest vr.com friends....please forgive....
Last fall I found a lump on my neck around the same time I found out I had to have my heart problems taken care of......So in April I had open heart surgery. In May I had post-op lung issues. In June I had heart,lung and lump appointments and in July I had surgery to remove the lump. I know I am oversimplifying, but I am trying to make a long story short.
Anyway, I was diagnosed with Lymphoma, Non-Hodgkins and until I receive my PET scan results and bone marrow biopsy results I am hanging really tight to Stage One. ( I know all that might possibly change here in a little bit, but I am wanting to remain optimiistic regarding my staging.) As a good friend has said 'it's hard to come off of one battlefield onto another with very very little downtime in between...but it can be done.....especially with the right attitude.' At the time I wanted to slap the heck out of him.....
Up until mid-July I was walking and lifting weights (yes, patti, lifting weights
) and had so much determination and motivation good ol Rocky would have been darn proud. Since my diagnosis, I've become a bitter, angry, and incredibly sad and hollow soul. I've been full of jealousy even toward all you vr.comers who just have heart issues to deal with. I've cried so many tears just wishing for the 'bad heart only' days. But somehow during those tears, I've worked my way through my emotions and realize that it really doesn't matter if you're struggling with heart problems......cancer probblems.......heart/cancer problems or whatever else....There is no pecking order when it comes to health issues and that life isn't always easy and isn't always fair. It's been a long , long time since I've been anywhere near 'religious' but in the last few days there is a peace that has come over me (perhaps from prayers of family and friends??????) but my 'poor, pitiful me' attitude is nowhere to be found and I've found the me I was before my lymphoma came to town. I realize that it is especially during the difficult times that life needs to be lived to its fullest potential and that these are the times to triumph over circumstances with a ton of hope and courage. I've realized it doesn't matter whatsoever if what we are facing is a-fib issues, sleepless nights, swollen legs, chemo or something as silly as losing one's hair, we're all in this together and together we'll get through all this.....one day at a time.
My recent days have been made so much fuller and much, much brighter through the help of my friends and I am so deeply touched by the affection shown by cooker, atlanta pat, atlanta patti, blanche, robhol, praline.......Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I've learned from these people........don't ever forget to laugh,
or be too proud to cry....its by doing both that we live life to its fullest.
Thanking the good Lord for the rain and looking for my rainbow,
Debbi
Last fall I found a lump on my neck around the same time I found out I had to have my heart problems taken care of......So in April I had open heart surgery. In May I had post-op lung issues. In June I had heart,lung and lump appointments and in July I had surgery to remove the lump. I know I am oversimplifying, but I am trying to make a long story short.
Anyway, I was diagnosed with Lymphoma, Non-Hodgkins and until I receive my PET scan results and bone marrow biopsy results I am hanging really tight to Stage One. ( I know all that might possibly change here in a little bit, but I am wanting to remain optimiistic regarding my staging.) As a good friend has said 'it's hard to come off of one battlefield onto another with very very little downtime in between...but it can be done.....especially with the right attitude.' At the time I wanted to slap the heck out of him.....
Up until mid-July I was walking and lifting weights (yes, patti, lifting weights
) and had so much determination and motivation good ol Rocky would have been darn proud. Since my diagnosis, I've become a bitter, angry, and incredibly sad and hollow soul. I've been full of jealousy even toward all you vr.comers who just have heart issues to deal with. I've cried so many tears just wishing for the 'bad heart only' days. But somehow during those tears, I've worked my way through my emotions and realize that it really doesn't matter if you're struggling with heart problems......cancer probblems.......heart/cancer problems or whatever else....There is no pecking order when it comes to health issues and that life isn't always easy and isn't always fair. It's been a long , long time since I've been anywhere near 'religious' but in the last few days there is a peace that has come over me (perhaps from prayers of family and friends??????) but my 'poor, pitiful me' attitude is nowhere to be found and I've found the me I was before my lymphoma came to town. I realize that it is especially during the difficult times that life needs to be lived to its fullest potential and that these are the times to triumph over circumstances with a ton of hope and courage. I've realized it doesn't matter whatsoever if what we are facing is a-fib issues, sleepless nights, swollen legs, chemo or something as silly as losing one's hair, we're all in this together and together we'll get through all this.....one day at a time. My recent days have been made so much fuller and much, much brighter through the help of my friends and I am so deeply touched by the affection shown by cooker, atlanta pat, atlanta patti, blanche, robhol, praline.......Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I've learned from these people........don't ever forget to laugh,
or be too proud to cry....its by doing both that we live life to its fullest.
Thanking the good Lord for the rain and looking for my rainbow,
Debbi
